Somewhere along the line I gave up. What’s the opposite of that? Take-up? Live up? I dunno, but I bet it has nothing to do with wasting endless work hours in front of a computer not working and pawing the internet for dopamine that doesn’t exist. I bet it has much to do with time in the mountains. Time exploring. Time laughing with friends. Time in/on/over the ocean. All of the things that I’m getting so little of right now.